Monday, September 11, 2006

Five Years Ago


i remember

feeling small
and hollow
watching someone's someone
fall

waiting
with an ache invading
glad and sad
to be so far

ashes and ashen
and tears streaking through
the grey of dead
and lost

yet somehow
papers gently raining
so pristine
and clean

hope
and then despair
when hope
did not find there

asking why
and how
could people hurt
without knowing who

begging Him
can't you come
and make this
done

i remember
i won't forget
you and they
who did it to
us

14 comments:

  1. i don't like your comments thing... i've been fighting with it for the past 5 minutes... it's a little retarded... anywas... i was wondering if you wrote the poem or not... it's nice...i mean... tragic, but nice... i mean... you know what i mean

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  2. Beautiful poem. May we always remember that the Christ who loved me enough to die on the cross also died for Bin Laden and his soldiers. Amen.

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  3. There still are days that I see some of the footage from that day, and still can't believe that it really happened. What a tragedy!!

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  4. I guess I should have signed it.

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  5. Great poem. What a sad sad day. I watched the New York football game last night, and they showed ground zero a few times, it was still so eerie. I guess they're building one huge building there - good for them, I say.

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  6. The sad thing is, the government knew it was going to happen.

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  7. I think the sad thing is... It happened.

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  8. i agree beck... it's not a matter of who knew it was going to happen or who didn't... it's the whole thing of that someone has the complete and utter lack of respect for humankind, for their neighbours, and even themselves that they would commit such atrocious act... goes to show how horrible people can be... what bothers me is that people actually want to remember it by watching video of the planes hitting the videos, or people jumping out of the towers, i mean... really... these are peoples lives... it's like if i were to get shot... and someone got it on video, i would want the tape destroyed before anyone i cared about saw it... i don't want to be remembered in death, and i don't think those that passed would want to either... i kind of think it's a little vulgar... that might just be my opinion... but yeah... it's my opinion

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  9. You know what's funny Trav? Up until last night I would have agreed with you 100%. I think now I only agree maybe 90%.

    I saw this documentary about some of the pictures taken at the World Trade Center, one of them was called The Falling Man. I remember on the day it happened being most upset by the sight of people falling or jumping to their deaths, and by the fact that there was video footage that was taken of it happening. It horrified me to think of family members watching and recognizing loved ones in their last seconds here on earth. It still does.

    Anyways, someone also took a bunch of still photographs of those falling loved ones. I looked at some of them online a few nights ago and cried. I touched the computer screen where they seemed to hover, still falling, wishing that there had been some way to save them. I prayed for their families. I prayed for all of us.

    Then last night I saw a man on that documentary who recognized his wife in some of those photographs. He said it gave him peace to know how she died. And I guess I can understand that a little... To know the person you loved wasn't burned to death, or even just to know - how it ended - where it ended. To feel in some obscure way like you were there with them, and that the world was there and suffered too. I don't know, maybe I'm weird, but it always bothers me when the world doesn't notice the passing of someone I love. I'm sure not everyone would feel the way he did, or I do. I'm not even sure I feel the way I think I do. After all, it wasn't actually Glen or my mom falling to their deaths.

    I guess I feel like as much as I didn't want to witness those events it was important that I did. Would my heart have the same feelings of empathy if I had never seen those images? I doubt it actually. It's the same with the images of broken hearted family members crying after the tsunami. It seems like it would take a cold hearted person to film something like that. It seems wrong to intrude upon someone's grief, but those images touched the hearts of people accross the world and made us, in a small way, a part of their tragedy.

    I definately agree that the images we saw on September 11th were vulgar. I'm just not sure I still feel that no one should look at them.

    Of course, I change my mind all the time.

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  10. I agree with both of you. They were horrible but sometimes we need to be a bit shaken out of our comfort zones we live in and realize that there are horrible things happening in our world and it's just a good reminder to pray for those that we may never meet. It is sad that sometimes it takes images like that though for me to realize that I need to pray more for the world as a whole.
    Auntie Mitz

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  11. i know what you're saying becky... and i agree to an extent... i guess i just get bothered by other stuff... i used to not so much, like when that american reporter was beheaded by al quida (sp)... i mean... how many people watched the video of him getting his head savagely cut off... i know i did... and i regret it... it was greusome... i knew how he died, i didn't need to see it... but something in me wanted to... i don't know why, and i wish now that i had never seen it... at first it wasn't a big deal to me... but it's weird... i've changed a lot since last summer... for those of you who don't know... last summer me and my dad and uncle henry helped pull a kid out of the lake... it was horrible... i mean... brutally horrible... there's a post on my blog... http://the-real-deal.blogspot.com/2005/07/so.html#comments ... stuff like that changes a person... i never really want to see someone die again... that may change once i have kids... or if anyone ever does anything to my family... but until then... yeah... i think just knowing would be enough for me... i don't think, no, i know that i wouldn't want to watch another person die... ever... again... might just be my opinion... but it is my opinion

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  12. I never thought I would see a place in this world for videos like the ones we are talking about. (Although that soldier one might be one I'd bote for totally destroying.) I think they might have a place though. I see them as almost scared because to me they are like the last echo of a person's life. I definately think sometimes people don't watch them with the solemnity they deserve and see them as more of a curiosity than anything. Given the choice I am not sure I would watch the footage of 9/11 either. I guess I'm saying I think I can see the other point of view now too... That the world should be a witness to some of the atrocities that happen... That we need to see the pain that exists outside of our comfortable lives.

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  13. i agree with that... but at the same time, you don't need to look to iraq, afghanistan, or even new york for that matter. there's more than enough pain locally that people choose to shut out... granted there was some good that came out of 9-11, like out in gander where we saw the world come together in places like gander, when all the planes that were heading into the us were diverted, i mean that was cool. but at the same time as far as realizing pain in our world, go to confederation mall in saskatoon, watch the people begging for money because they blow all their welfare cheque's on beer, or the ones that are so constantly drunk on listerine or hair spray that they don't have homes, or the 14 year old girl who runs away from home because her dad beats her, and the only way she can afford to eat is to prostitute herself out, and in doing so she develops an addiction to meth amphetimine drops out of school, starts stealing stuff and winds up a career criminal and drug addict by the age of 16. or the kids who by the age of 16 have 12 years of shoplifting experience. pain is more than an international epidemic. unfortunately it's become background noise. sometimes literally, people write songs about pain, all the time, and people say, oh that's a nice song. me and jon thomas played at lydia's tonight, we did three songs. all three of which are kind of songs that are meant to relate to people who are going thru hell. ( http://www.caseinpointmusic.com )
    anyways... people clapped at the end of each song because it's the nice thing to do, but at the end of the set, one guy asked if they were original songs, and everyone else just said stuff like nice set, good job... stuff like that... i mean... people become accustomed to pain... they ignore it because it points to their own flaws in some way, people think that if someone else is suffering it may be their own fault someway or another... people feel guilty with local pain, so they ignore it, it's easier to focus on international pain, to create distance with it, to sponsor a child from some war torn country and feel good about making a change, and i'll be the first to admit it, i've got denelson eduardo rodriguez hanging on my fridge, and sure it's a great thing to do, and i don't want to discourage it, but more needs to be done locally too... once again... my thoughts... sorry there's so many of them

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  14. I agree with you Margaret.
    Anna

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