Friday, October 09, 2009

Dad

Dad left the arms of his loving family to rest in the arms of his loving father today at around 5:40 pm. Angela was on one side of him holding his hand, and I was holding the other and stroking his hair and singing "Be still and know that I am God" to him quietly. Mom was beside me. He gasped twice and was gone just like that. Even being there, I can still hardly believe this happened.

We know he's not hurting anymore. We know he isn't sad or lonely. But we are hurting. There are no words to describe the anguish of that moment and all of the moments of letting go that led up to it. But we are together and we have family here with us to help.

I told Dad many times today that it was all right. But it's not really.

7 comments:

  1. Our prayers are with you and your family, Becky. ((HUGS))

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  2. I am a lurker who has followed the whole story. My dad has cancer in his bone marrow. They say it is slow moving. My awful journey is just starting. You have helped me in ways you will never know. I am so so sorry for your huge loss. I absolutely dread the day you just lived. My heart goes out to you, daddy's little girl.

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  3. Thanks Tammy. That means a lot to me. If I have learned one thing through all of this, it's that no one can really understand how hard this is till they've been through it. I'm so sorry to think of everything ahead of you, and hoping that you get to miss out on some of it, most especially what the last few days have been like.

    If you'd like to talk feel free to email me at ykcebmail at yahoo dot ca. One of the most comforting people for me this last year or so has been another previous lurker, who I now consider a dear friend.

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  4. I can't believe it, Becky. I'm so sorry and just don't have the words to say. You've been in my thoughts so much today. Wishing I could hold some of your sorrow for even just a minute, to make your load lighter. Know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers in the days ahead. ((hug))

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  5. Dear Becky and Glen, we love you and have been not knowing what to say except in prayer...please know we have you in our hearts constantly and we send you and the kids big hugs. Could you please post the information about when and where the funeral will be?

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  6. Becky, Glen & family,

    Our prayers are with you at this time. May God grant you peace. Our hearts ache for all of you.

    Love,
    Rain & family

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  7. Hi Becky

    Karen and I just got back to Yorkton and we just heard about your loss. We are so deeply hurting for you, Glen and the boys. Both Karen and I have experienced the pain you are going through right now and from personal experience it does get better, even though it does not seem possible and the hole he has left in your heart seems like it will never be gone. It has been over 15 years since I lost my Dad to cancer and 12 years when Karen's dad passed away from cancer but the memories of losing him has been slowly replaced by the fun times and great wisdom he has passed on to me. There are still times when I think about him and wish that he could of had the chance to watch his grandchildren grow up and there are times when a tear comes to my eye when I see people with thier dads laughing or when I see a grandpa with his grandchildren and I wish that is was my Dad . You are in our prayers and if you need anything at all please do not hesitate to call.

    Love John, Karen, Sophie, Kenny and Jacob

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