Showing posts from February, 2006


My heart is feeling broken today. My friend and cousin Mavis passed away and I'm going to miss her so much, but I'll see her again...

Every Season
Nichole Nordeman

Every evening sky, an invitation
To trace the patterned stars
And early in July, a celebration
For freedom that is ours
And I notice You
In children’s games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer

And even when the trees have just surrendered
To the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September
And sending us inside
Still I notice You when change begins
And I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what has been and was to come
You are autumn

And everything in time and under heaven
Finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white, all creation
Shivers underneath
And still I notice you
When branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even now in death, You open doors for Life to enter
You are winter

And everything that’s new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breath…

2 Random Thoughts

1. I love putting through the first 2 loads of laundry. There are no clothes to take out of the dryer and there's no folding to do yet. After that laundry just goes downhill for me. 2. I just touched one of the gross bugs in our basement with my bare finger. Usually I pick them up with a kleenex, but somehow the kleenex slipped this time and I touched it. You gotta figure it's gonna happen after picking up over 20 of the disgusting things in ONE DAY! I'm still freaking out a bit here. Oh look, there's another...


I've been thinking a lot about contentment lately courtesy of Dixie... I've been meaning to write an uplifting post about how I need to focus on God and the great and amazing things in my life right now, but today I feel like wallowing a bit. So here goes.

I am FREAKED out about my upcoming cesarean section. For those of you who don't know, Ben was an emergency cesarean. It was very disappointing to me. I was unconscious. I missed his birth. I suffered for 14 hours of hard and fast labor and then none of the suffering even got me anywhere but into the operating room. Then I got to feel wrecked not only from laboring all night long, but from a major surgery too. Still, the thing that bugged me the most... It broke my heart actually, was that I wasn't "there" when Ben was born. Strangers heard his first cry, saw him open his eyes and see the world for the first time... THAT KILLS ME.

Anywho. We're going for a planned cesarean this time around. In stupid Yorkt…

Mmmmeal memories...

So Mel's little game got me thinking of a post Ang and I were going to write a while ago but never got around to...

You know how sometimes some meals just stand out in your mind? The food you ate was the best thing you ever tasted in your whole like? For some reason you can remember every detail of the meal including what you were wearing? Maybe you don't know. Maybe Ang and I are freaks, but here are some of my fondest meal memories...

Left Over Lobster:
Where? Screen Kitchen, Emerald Lake Campsite
What I Wore? No shoes. Purple swimsuit with a zipper down the front, a classic.
Who Else Was There? Mom, Dad, Johnny, Mikey, Ang.
What I Could Hear? Alannah Myles was singing Black Velvet on the radio.
Meal Summary: Ahhhh... My first taste of lobster... Mom and Dad had a friend from the maritimes who brought it for them, they had some leftover and shared it with all of us. We ate it cold. So stinkin' good.

Where? Some random Bonanza on the way to Michigan.
What I Wore? I don&#…

Somebody shouldn't leave their site open

So I came downstairs and low and behold here the computer was on and opened to this site. I think I owe her one. Anyways, it is really cold here. This is more than just hating winter, or the fact that we have had a really mild winter. This morning it was -23, the coldest temp this winter so far, but the with the wind chill it was -40, and it stayed there all day. I pretty much stayed in my office and did paper work all day. There was no way I was going out in it. Tonight it is supposed to go down to -31. Maybe I'll clean my office tomorrow. All I know is I am not going out in it. Tonight I got to play with Ben while everybody watched survivor. Finally something to do while that dumb show was on. I wouldn't mind it if it was all just competition's, but when they film them whining and talking about each other the show does a fast slide into the toilet for me. So, me and Ben played cars, choo-choo, then I stuck some plastic balls under his shirt, he thought that was just hila…


Mel tagged me. Hers somehow ended up a lot longer than mine... I don't know what my problem is, I'm usually so chatty.

Biggest Comfort Food:
I don't know.... Depends on my mood really... Junk basically.

Favorite 3 Fast Food Places and What I Order:
Taco Bell: Chicken Burritos
Wendy's: Chicken BLT Salad or Chili and Cheese Nachos
I don't like any other fast food places.

Favorite Food My Grandma Makes:
Anything but mostly: Pickles or Buns With Peanut Butter and Syrup

Best Food I Make:
Spaghetti maybe. I don't know... Ask Ang.

I'm tagging Ang. Just cause.

Ens Family Blog

For those of you who know the Ens family here's a link to their blog:

There are some cute pictures of the kidlettes and even one of Cindy!

For those of you who don't know the Ens family, they are missionaries in Mexico City and VERY precious to me. I miss them so much it hurts sometimes. (I wish I could go for a visit... Sigh... Good thing I'm such a detailed dreamer. It's like I've actually seen them sometimes... The other day I had a weird one about Paul though... He was a guest on the Dr. Phil show... Long story... We taped it for Dad.)

Party Time!

And You're Invited!
Since Melissa and Jonathan and Noah are all by themselves for Noah's very first birthday, Melissa thought it would be nice to show everybody his birthday party! February 14th is Noah's birthday and he's going to have spaghetti and cake and presents. You can watch him eat his spaghetti and cake and open his presents because Melissa is going to broadcast his birthday on the internet! If you want to go just click on at 6:00 tomorrow night. (That's Winnipeg time, which is the same as Saskatchewan time.) Melissa did a test run tonite and it worked great! I watched Noah throw a ball and do some dancing. He's so cute! I can hardly wait for the big party! (Especially the spaghetti part!) ***If you go to the party you will get signed in under a guest name - please take a minute to change your display name so they will know who's there and they don't block you.*** P.S. Melissa has…

Happy Birthday Mom!

It's my mom's birthday today. It's also my best friend's birthday... Lucky for me I only have to buy one present because they are the same person.

When anything happens to me the first person, aside from Glen, I want to tell is my mom. When I see something funny on TV I want to tell my mom. When Ben does something new I want to tell my mom. When I go to the doctor's I want to tell my mom all about it. I want to tell my mom when I am ticked off about something. I want to talk to her when I am worried. I want to tell her all about the great things that happen in my life.

The very best part of all of this is that I want to tell her... and she is always ready to listen. (It's a good thing we have bundles.) She's the best friend a person could have and I love her more than I think she really knows.

(Maybe she should get two presents...)


For those of you who don't already know....

Mavis is back in the hospital. The tumor in her brain is back and worse than it was before. She has another surgery and radiation in her immediate future. Please remember her in your prayers. You can email her a message right to the hospital care of Well Wishes.

Why I Don't Like "Church"...

General meetings.

Actually, this last one was brutal in some ways and a big relief in others. I'm still pretty tender after some of the stuff that happened at our last homechurch, so I don't handle any kind of inner strife very well at all. In fact, after watching a pastor who I loved be driven from the church I thought of as a family my new policy at the first sign of trouble is... GET OUT WHILE THE GETTING'S GOOD. We had some trouble last night... And there was a vote to go with it. That's a recipe for disaster in my books. The mudslingers were there and did their best to stir things up and then... Some superheroes shut them down. I left the meeting feeling slightly battered by some of the things that were said/implied... But on the whole I was relieved. I know that there are people in my church who will defend my pastor and his wife. I know that there are people in my church who refuse to participate in slandering others AND EVEN BETTER who will stand up to those who…