Showing posts from October, 2010

A Year

Missing you. And thinking of where you are and what you are doing and seeing... And reminding myself that this endless wait is not as endless as it seems.

About Me

We all have things we hate about ourselves. One of the things I've hated for a long time is how emotional I am. I hate it that I cry when I get mad. It's humiliating. I also hate it that I cry (I've actually done this) at school assemblies when I'm subbing... Just because the children are so sweet. It's humiliating. I also hate how when I'm sad I cry A LOT. And I can't stop it.

I've had people call me a baby. And not just when I was in elementary school, or high school... In my adult life. When I was younger I always imagined that once I was older I'd be able to control my emotions better. I was so wrong. I still seem to have no control over when or where or why I cry. It's humiliating. I feel like a baby. Like I never grew up. And I often feel that it is a burden to the people who love me best. I hate that too.

The other day I was thinking about this email that I sent my dad last October 4th, (I am SO glad I sent it in time) and I remembered tha…